Brittany Rebecca Helton

Thank you for watching over your brother for the last 6 months while he was deployed. He made it home safely yesterday and it was so good to see a genuine smile on your sister’s face. She worked so hard while he was gone and I could not be more proud of the both of them for getting through this. Sometimes life can be difficult, but we all have to help each other get through those rough spots. With everything that happened while Jeff was gone, I cannot believe how strong sissy has been. With the car accident and the puppy going missing, not to mention your birthday and your anniversary during that entire time, it’s no wonder that she is exhausted. And she continues her education. She is quite an amazing young lady, just as I am sure you would have been if you were still here with us.

I think of you on a daily basis. Little things remind me of you. I look for your name everywhere and when I find something with it spelled correctly I buy it. I know that it does not make it any better, or that it’s going to make you come back to us, but I just need to have those little reminders. Your pictures hang on the walls, but what I wouldn’t give to have YOU here instead of the pictures. I will continue to honor you and your name for the rest of my time here on earth.

I love you very much my baby! Rest in Peace sweetheart. I know you finally can.

Another month has come and gone. Soon the year will be over as well. I have found that I am no longer counting the days since you have been gone, nor am I counting the weeks like I used to. I am now counting the months. This makes me sad. I fear that eventually I will be only counting the years. I fear that someone will ask me how long you have been gone and I will actually have to stop and think about it.

It’s funny that some people try to deflect their guilt on other people. Don’t you find that to be strange baby? All I want is for you to have the ability to rest in peace, and for me and your sister to have some peace as well. I just wish that people would leave us alone. It has been almost 16 months since you have been gone and the CRAZY one is still causing issues. Will you please send her a sign and let her know that she is not being the good ‘christian’ that she claims to be.

I love you so very much, and no matter what anyone says, you are MY daughter. I gave birth to you and I will always love and adore you so very much. I miss you everyday.

Rest in peace my sweet angel. I love you.

As I’m lying here in bed trying to muster up the energy to start another dreaded day, I’m curious as to what you are doing right now. I wonder if you have gone for a walk, if you have played with any puppies, if you have seen your great grandparents or made someone smile. (The last one is a given) I wish I knew what you did on a daily basis up there since I didn’t get to know what you did on a daily basis down here. I wonder what you eat for breakfast. I wonder how you fill your time during the day.
I do know that you watch over us, which we are all very grateful for. I cry at night more and more these days. More than when you first left us. I’m sad that you are not around. I’m sad that you cannot see your baby sisters grow up or spend adult time with Ashley. I’m sad that I will never have a chance to tell you everything that happened, and I’m sad that I allowed that horrible person to treat you the way that she did. I’m sorry I could not be there for you. I did not know what was going on, but I wish that you had reached out to my because I would have done everything I could to save you.
Just remember that your mom loves you very much. Since the day I found out about you, the love has always been there.
Rest in peace sweetheart.

It’s so funny that people still cannot realize when they need to stop their BS and just allow others to go on with their lives. Ugly messages on things that are supposed to be in memory of you are completely unacceptable and will not be tolerated. I have no room for something like that in my life, and now I understand why you were ready to leave where you were because of the behavior of the people around you. I wish I could have gotten you out of there. If I had, you would still be alive and would be happy again.

I love you sweetheart. Just remember….you can no longer be hurt or attacked by those people.

Rest in peace baby.

and we celebrate another birthday without you. Your baby sister turns 9 today and you are not here to celebrate. You are not here to call her and sing happy birthday to her. GOD she looks so much like you that at times I have to stop myself and remember that she is not Brittany and that she is Tee. I have to remember to NOT call her by your name. It’s scary at times how many of her traits remind me of you. She does things just like you did.

I remember celebrating some birthdays with you. I miss those times. I miss the times that you were here and we were a family. We were such a happy family when we were together.

I love you and miss you so much. Rest in peace sweetheart.

I am finding myself missing you so much these days. Maybe it’s because of the messages that I have received from people that knew you and those who did not know any of us but have come across your site or saw your headstone at the cemetery. I find comfort in the kind words that people have for me, even after the almost 15 months that you have been gone. You know baby, people can spout off about GOD and the CREATOR or whatever, but if they do not believe in a higher being, then what does it matter. People can talk badly about me or your sister or whomever they way to, but is that really believing in a higher being. GOD would not approve of people talking mean about others. That is just another form of bullying.

Your baby sister is turning 9 next week, and you will not be here to see it. 🙁 She is starting to look more and more like you everyday, and for that, I am happy. That means that you both have the traits from my side of the family. I hope you will be looking down on her on the day of her birthday. It’s funny! I just realized that both of your baby sister’s were born on your favorite number! How awesome is that? I wish that you were here with us to celebrate Tee’s birthday and then Mama’s birthday the following month, and brother is coming back from deployment right before Christmas! There is so much going on in the next 2 months that I am not sure if I will be able to keep myself and everything else straight.

You and your sisters have always been my sunshine on the darkest of days. I am so glad to have had what little time with you that we had. It was of no fault of either of us that we did not have more time. We will let those who stole that from us answer to the person they need to when it is their time to do so. For now, I will cherish the times we did have, for no one will ever be able to take those moments away from us. I held you when I brought you into the world, and I told you how much I loved you when you left this world.

Stay strong and beautiful and please continue to watch over those that love you still today. You will never have to worry about being hurt by others ever again my sweetheart.

I love you! Rest in Peace

There was an amazing event held in Pomona, CA on 10/1/2011 in memory of Jacob Soto. It was a classic car show on the 5th anniversary of Jacob’s passing. The family did an amazing job and they had a great turn out! We are definitely doing something like this in Las Vegas next year.
http://www.dailybulletin.com/ci_19023137

Thank you baby for watching over your sister and her puppy. Last week was very scary for us with the accident. She rolled the Jeep and we could not find Patton for over a day. That little dog is so smart! You would love her. She came right back to the site of the accident and was waiting for sissy to come back. Luckily she was able to walk away from it with a slight concussion and needed a few stitches. You must had had something to do with that. I don’t know what I would have done if something had happened to her also. It was bad enough losing you, but the thought of my 2 big girls being gone was more than I could take. After seeing that she was ok, our concern turned to Patton. Thankfully she was smart enough to go back and that nothing bad happened to her. Sissy would not be able to handle that if it had. It was a scary time.

You always seem to be here when we need you the most. I just hope that you are with me today and give me the patience that I need to deal with some people that I don’t want to deal with.

I love you so very much!

Happy birthday my sweet angel! I can’t believe it’s been 20 years since I first laid eyes on you!
Gram, sissy, Ben and I went to the beach today and had an amazing dinner in honor of your special day. We wish you were here. It would have made the day perfect.
We love you and miss you so very much.