Brittany Rebecca Helton

But the souls of the righteous are in the hand of God, and there shall no torment touch them. In the sight of the unwise they seemed to die: and their departure is taken for misery, and their going from us to be utter destruction; but they are in peace. – The Wisdom of Solomon 3:1-3

‘In the wisdom of the ages may I find solace and hope.’

‘In the world I inhabit, I find steadiness, and a place to be.’

Happy Birthday my sweet angel! 21 years old today. I cannot believe that 21 years ago you blessed me with your arrival into this crazy world. Although my time with you was taken away by unmentionables, I still have the lasting memory of carrying you for 10 months, giving birth to you and holding you for the first time. I was the first person that to kiss you, dressed you, cared for you when you were sick and rocked you to sleep when you could not fall asleep.

I love you and miss you so very much. I am so sorry for everything that you had to deal with before you left. I am sorry that your mind was filled with the lies that others continue to feel the need to tell. Now, you are able to see everything that has and is still happening. it’s ok sweetheart.

Thank you for looking over us like you do. I feel your presence everywhere I go. I know you are with me and your sisters. I know you are guiding us to do the right thing every day.

Rest in peace my angel. I hope it was one hell of a party up there.

“Above all, do not lose your desire to walk. Every day I walk myself into a state of well-being, and walk away from every illness. I have walked myself into my best thoughts, and I know of no though so burdensome that one cannot walk away from it.” – Soren Kierkegaard

‘Nobody home – I’ve gone for a walk!’

‘I do have some choice about when grief is primary in my life.’

‘I will step back into the stream of life – and see what happens.’

How can someone say that their grief is any more important or any stronger than someone else’s grief? Granted, we all grieve in different ways, but who is anyone to say that their hurt is more significant than anyone elses? How self centered and selfish to diminish anyone’s feelings for someone they have lost.

Allow others to grieve and DO NOT discount their grief. It is not fair that because someone may not have spent a significant amount of time with someone that they do not hurt as badly as someone else. ESPECIALLY someone who gave birth to a child and had that child taken away from her by someone that claimed to have loved her and then pushed her to take her own life. Someone who was/is so obsessed with her ‘children’ that she would not allow one of them to actually have a life. Someone who cannot realize that she still has 2 living children and that the child that died was not even hers. She did not give birth to her, but continues to claim that her pain is so much more important than anyone else’s.

“learning to trust will be for all of us the means by which the root system grows firm and nourishes the tree of life.” – Elaine M. Prevallet

‘I will relax into the memory and spiritual presence of my love one, and feel at peace.’

‘I am grateful for the gift of being able to cry.’