Just Drained……
by Stacey on Jun.16, 2011, under Thoughts and Feelings
That’s how I feel these days. As much as I try to be productive, it’s not working. I am exhausted all the time and can’t seem to snap out of it. We have some tough days coming up and I know that it is going to be hard on all of us. Sissy and I are going to go to the beach for your birthday because that is what you were going to do when you came out here to visit this year. I wish that we could all go together.
Your baby sister was doing something the other day and I looked at her just as she looked up at me and smiled and it was like looking at your beautiful freckle face. She looks so much like you and she does not even know it. She will never have the chance to see how much you too resemble each other. It’s almost scary. At least I know that you both got your looks from me. 🙂
I know that it has been a while since I have written, but I just have not been feeling up to doing much of anything. It does not mean that I do not think of you everyday…every second and every chance I get. Everything that I do is for you and your sisterss.
I love you so much, and sometimes would give anything just to be with you again.
June 27th, 2011 on 8:31 am
I reached this memorial page through the AFSP Out of the Darkness Overnight Walk’s page for the 2012 Walk in Cali. Money is extremely tight for me at the moment, so I cannot donate right now, but I just wanted to say that I am extremely sorry for the loss of your daughter, Brittany. I think it is amazing that you are doing the Walk (and have a team together for her). I just completed the 2011 walk here in NYC (I also did the 2008 one here). It was an amazing experience, and I worked hard to raised $3,200 on my own. I thought about a lot of things, and decided to make the trip all the way to Cali next June for the 2012 Walk. Below is my fundraising page.
http://theovernight.donordrive.com/participant/nicolepryan
I am not messaging on here in order to get a donation, but to show you my page and show you why this walk means a lot to me and why I have set my goal higher this year. I lost a friend of mine last year, and the pain was just horrible; so I can only imagine the feelings that you and your family had/have. I guess my point is that, I know you still hurt because of losing her, but know that by doing the Walk, it really will make a difference to other young adults out there. I almost didn’t make it to see where I am at now, but now that I’m here, I want to make a difference. I know I can. Sure I’m “only 25”, but I truly do believe that a single person can make a difference. And honestly, if the money I help the AFSP to raise, can in some way improve the life of even a single person considering taking their life, then I have succeeded.
Again, I am sorry for your loss, and for this random message, but I wish you and your team the best of luck fundraising this next year. -Nicole Ryan
June 27th, 2011 on 10:37 am
Nicole,
Thank you for the random message. You have no idea what it means to me when people reach out like you did and share your story. It is here for everyone to read and it is important to get the word out to as many people as we can about the tragedy of suicide.
I am impressed that someone so young as yourself is working as hard as you are to raise awareness. Please don’t stop doing what you are doing. Talk to everyone you know, and even those you don’t know. You never know who you may touch with your story.
You are in my thoughts, and I also wish you the best for you and your fundraising efforts!
All my best…
Stacey