Brittany Rebecca Helton

I wonder if I will ever kick this exhaustion that has taken over me. I am tired all the time. I slept most of the weekend and I am still so very tired. I can’t be like this because of your little sisters. I have to be able to take care of them, but I can barely take care of myself right now. All I want to do is sleep. I think that everything is finally catching up to me. So many things have happened over the past several years, but none so bad as losing you. I think that my body has finally realized that it has been through so much that it’s ready to just shut down. With all the fighting with your father to get you back and then the continued fighting just to get him to abide by the court orders to have you come and visit, to the issues that happened over the weekend before sister’s graduation to losing the dogs and losing you. It all has just pretty much sucked the life out of me. I wish you really understood while you were on this earth just how much I loved you. That never changed, no matter what anyone ever said to you. You were my child and I loved you as much as I love your sisters. I know that you were told some things that were not true, and one day I hope to be able to see your face and clear up all the wrongs that were done to you. I hope you can see now just how much you mean to me and how sad we all are that you are gone.

I love you